Day 101.

我想要的是这样的幸福.

Day 87.

Day 80.

Yesterday went to malaysia, shop, sing and watch movie.
me and yh sang Hurt So Bad.
i dun dare to look at him.. cause 我狠怕.
last song i sang is 如果这就是爱情,
almost tear out le.
but i still manage to sing all out with my awful voice..

好复杂的恋情 which i dunno how to explain.
i dunno what to do. so fml.
Seriously fml..
我很想逃.可是我能逃去哪里?
逃避能解决问题吗? haix..

Day 78.

how i wish i can dun care. or just mia for weeks.
what i do also not right at all.

things may not be de same like last time.
some things may be different.
u say i have changed.
yes. maybe i changed. yes, maybe things cannot be back like last time.
but my heart for u never change.
and its more then enough to cover everything.

Day 71.

如果我成全了你
如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清
是我证明
我爱你

我的心还是在你这边的.

the whole song is so awesome!

Day 66.

分开以后 每当想到你我就会低下头

Day 63.

不要走, 我舍不得.
我谁都不要, 只要你.
可是我们什么都不可以做.
只可以抱着你哭.
你回不来, 我进不去.

非要等到爱远走 分两头 才知道 多不舍你走
非要等到爱远走 分两头 才知道 你我都怕寂寞

对不起, 我为难了你.

Day 60.

两个月了...

The hardest thing in love is letting go,
Letting go the one you love.

Surprised that i never post day 54?
yupe. because i forget.. (how can i forget?!)
its because i went out with him..
after that went to kbox and find my friends..

wait for de next awesome post bah. =)

Day 53.

Picture took at Singapore Indoor Stadium.
where we went to watch SHINee's Concert.
and thats de last pic we took together...

Sometimes words aren't enough to describe how I feel about you... about us.

Day 52.

get to listen to this song at radio when i was working in Fish and Co.
i dunno who de hell is this guy. i dun even no his mv so suck.
and he is not famous at all.
but one thing, his song is awesome~

Out of all the people in this world, I still want you.
Saranghamnida.

Day 51..

自從你離開了我變得很軟弱
你的影子在每一個角落
好像是在提醒著我
少了你的陪伴我現在有多寂寞

Day 50..

another stupid mv.
with awesome lyrics..

你好吗?
tml i got no work.. can rest rest.
today so tired.
yesterday late reach home and today got jap lesson. omg..
but still ok. i got afternoon nap.
with work, time pass real fast..

hope u are fine with ur homework too.
presentation coming up, 要加油! =)

Day 49.

Recently busy with my work..
working night shift de.
when i wake up, u are at sch or with ur friends.
when i end work, u tired and fall asleep le.
so doesnt have much time to tok to u..
but sometimes when i end work,
i still receive ur msg which makes me feel so nice and happy.
and when i reach home, u are still online..
i still have time to chat abit abit with u..

even though de abit doesnt help much, but im still happy. =)

even though ur time and my time is abit different now,
but still hope i can catch up abit of ur something.
cause i still care. 还很想你.

Hurt So Bad this song, really very nice.
its like another 過火 song.
every single sentence is how i feel like telling u..
have to thanks yh for singing that song that day.

Day 48.

did u find this song so familiar?
the music is from 为什么相爱的人不能够在一起.

very nice song that i heard from kbox..
爱真的没那么简单,
if it is so easy, i already got u back le..

你是否听到我心中那个小小的秘密?

Day 47.

Baby I love you so much..
你走了我的心在淌血...
你知道吗?

Day 46.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UU!!

祝你生日快乐~

this cow thingy place at my room for quite a long time le.
thats why so dusty now.
anyway, its to remind me that ur bday is coming,
and i gonna prepare something awesome for u. =)

hope this year de things that i prepared is awesome enough.

我要跟你讲，你 不管发生什么事， 一定要过的快快乐乐的。好吗？
你开心就是我开心。有什么事，都可以找我聊。 =)

Day 45.

i 越来越想 this 4 little cutie and the rest of them.
how are they doing?
did they miss me? =(

Day 44.

我们的爱, 过了就不在回来.
直到现在我还在默默的等待.

Day 43.

我的彩虹不见了.
真的不见了.
找不回来了.

Day 42.

Without words things just happened like this.
without words love leaves and threw me away.
without words my tears fell down
without words my heart breaks

Without words love came.
without words love left.
like a fever i had before.

My heart was surprised to leave you without any preparation.

Day 41.

Awesome song from handsome guy Jang Geun Suk

What should i do?
I can do nothing.
Really nothing.

I cry out to you
but you cant hear me because
I am only shouting in my heart.

Day 40.

Remember this?
u put it on for me and it is still on my neck.
The first diamond that u bought it for me.
using up all ur savings to get it for me.

i still remember i told u i one a 1carat ring when u propose to me.
and u told me back that u will slowly buy a bit by bit
for all special days and accumulate
until de last diamond to make it 1carat to propose to me.

你还记得吗?

Now, whats going on?
What's happening?

Day 39.

Have to inability to accept all this.
Should i love u or hate u?
I think it is better to remain silent.

Day 38.

Stupid MV.
Nice Lyrics.

我想要的不只是sorry.

Day 37.

Both is ur fav.
when we got craving to eat sushi
we will just go to Sakae Sushi
and u can just order nonstop with this 2 items.

i still remember there is one time
u order 4 plate of Tako. 1plate with 2 Tako inside.
4 plate is 8 Tako.
de waitress serve wrongly to other table.
de person who is sitting at de table just stun there.
thinking did he order so much Tako?!
after that u told de waitress it is urs.
de person just stare at u. lol.

really miss those times.
find one day we go makan again! =)

Day 36.

我真的很怕安静.
very scare to sleep.
because everytime i sleep, no one is beside me.
i even need to cover my ears to sleep
because my room is dark and quiet.
it will make me think alot of things and cry again.
thats why i always keep myself awake. and lack of sleep.
i seriously cannot tahan de quietness every night.

我不想怕安静可以吗.

你以经不怕安静了.

Day 35.

我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
那就是你
告诉我 爱不单行 别害怕.

Day 34.

我的另一半可以回来吗？
我的生活 只差你就美满。

Day 33.

我呼吸的时候会痛
想见你不能见最痛

我发誓不在说慌了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着
你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰
你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

Everyday repeat & repeat this song and listen before i could go to bed.

Day 32.

香水

i think our relationship is like ur Perfumes.
i bought u one Giorgo Armani de.
u slowly use it for a very long time.
now left half bottle.

After back from Taiwan, u bought urself a CK Free For Men.
and u are using it now. and never touch de Giorgo Armani le.

its like using de Giorgo Armani until sian liao.
wanna change diff but also nice so got urself a CK.
Understand?

i feel that im not into ur world le.
i feel that we have distance already.
i dunno whats ur world is now.
drink? town? with ur group of friends? and her?
i dun even dare or allow to step into ur world.

anyone that is close to u knows that u are closer with friends then gf.
which i dun mind at all.
sometimes i wish that i can throw away de position of gf
and be ur very good friend.
so that u will be nice and good like how u treat ur friends too.

am i ur good friend now?
why u still treat me so diff from ur friends?
because u use to treat me like this?
because im not ur friend?
because ur friends and me is 2 diff world?
or because she is over there?

how can i get into ur world again?
should i learn how to drink and bring u go town everyday
so that i can get into ur world?
or how can we get back to our world that we use to be?

i never dun wanna tok to u in msn.
lazy to say out why.
cause im repeating my words and sentences again.

i am so lost. because im alone in my own world. ='(

Day 31.

以前说的不是这种以后.

以前也要的不是这种以后.

Day 30.

一个月了，时间过的好快。
以前，你用一个月的时间来放下这段恋情。
而现在的我，已经一个月过了我还放不下你。
还很舍不得你。还很需要你。
因为我一直把你排在第一位。
突然间发生怎样的事，我真的受不了。
每天还在哭哭啼啼的想想想。
我到底怎么了？
我该怎么办？
谁可以告诉我。
我快要累死了。好想死了算了。不用想那么多。
可是我没那么傻。

世界上最遥远的距离，是你... 陪着我的时候想着她.
最痛的距離,是你不在身邊卻在我的心裡。

我觉得你比以前快乐了. 你也不怕安静了。
你有一群朋友和她在你的身边。
你看着她就行了。不用一直看你的电话。
我说的对吧。

五年，就这样完了吗？

Day 29.

你的温柔 像一把刀 刺进我的胸口.



我知道, 你不会的.

Day 28.

你看的见我的笑 多受伤吗?

Day 27.

你还记得吗？

Day 26.

Hows ur chalet? fun bah.
always wanted to whatsapp u but 没有勇气 to whatsapp u.
cause i no either is u dun reply me or u will take very long time to reply me.
and i have to wait and wait.
which makes me think that u have so much fun over there until reply me also so hard.
and when u are with me, ur phone ring u can just reply immediately.
so i tell myself not to whatsapp u, not to think so much.
just let u have fun. most important is that u are happy. =)

Day 25.

我卻无法把你忘了。

Day 24.

我的心比第一天还来的痛。
因为我知道你一天比一天的关心和但心她了。
你管都不管我了。

我不知道我该恨谁。
恨她也不对。
我好想恨你，可是我又舍不得恨你。
很生气，很不甘愿，好想找人发泄可是不知道找谁好。

我活该，我恨我自己我太过爱你。
恨我自己以前这样对你。
活该有着样的下场。

为什么！为什么！！ ='(

痛到快死了。

Anyway, im sure u will njoy ur 3d2n chalet so much de.

Day 23.

Kinda angry and pissed off.

Anyway, yesterday's dinner is awesome ttm!
because i get to see all of them yesterday which i miss them so muchie~
when i step into de house door, de kids there just call me jiejie..
my heart started to melt already.. so happy and upset at de same time.
so happy to see de kids, ur aunty uncle, ur brothers, ur da jie jie fu & jiahui jiayi.

its nice looking at them learning things from mama
playing ipad, watching johnny english,
toking to de kids, playing with each other,
and drink de ginseng tea. So re nao.

i never treasure before.
and regret after.

and de food is still so awesome.
miss ur aunty's cooking. =)
awesome food with awesome ppl = Best!

will there be next time? Nobody knows, even me.

Day 22.

you & ur nice pose..

爱太痛了.

Day 21.

3weeks le, time pass so fast. still heart pain ever.
u told me u never read de offline msg that i send u.
and yesterday i send it to u online.
after u read it, how do u feel?
nth? or feelings that dunno how to explain it out?
or dun wanna tell me?

hope those words can touched u abit.



失去了你, 我才知道我没什么朋友.
你对我来说真的很重要.

Day 20.

Key chain that u bought it at Wallaby..
Lazy one is u. Naughty one is me.
but ended up u tell me i should that de Lazy one.
and because this chain is heavy,
so both is with me now.
hanging along with my house key.

Day 19.

heart getting more and more pain.
uncountable knifes, needles, broken glasses stuck in my heart.
mood getting more and more bad.
no one dare to tok to me.
face getting more and more shag.
dark circles getting deeper.

lack of sleep and eat.
which gives me alot of time and i dunno what can i do.



u & ur fav Show.

u are my 药.

Day 18.

u, me & Taipei 101.

remember? u taught me how to take this pic.
following de couple that took de same angle of de pic behind us.

ok, i have a fat face.

Day 17.

did u receive ur offline msg from me in msn?
i did wrote alot to u telling u how i feel all this days..
i hope u did receive it.

All the best in ur Management today!
after that u wont have stress word in ur mind already. =)



Missya so much.

Day 16.

Miss all the oily and unhealthy food that u cooked for me.

Day 15.

i miss having Mc Breakfast with u..

Still have chance to eat breakfast with u?

i hope.
i wish.
i want.

Day 14.

This song is for u..

It's always de best if everyday is like yesterday night.
Please dun leave me.

Day 13.

我很想你。
我只要你。
我需要你。
可以回来吗？

如果可以，我希望时间能回到原点。

Day 12.

i miss all of them, alot.

Day 11.

The last pic that we took it together..

Day 10.

CupCorn use to be our fav in movies.
but price went up. so never get to eat it already..

Day 9.

This is what u bought for me at Taiwan.

Day 8.

Monday, I'm waiting
Tuesday, I'm still waiting to see
see.. see... if you are fine
Wednesday, you're still not here
Neither in the morning nor later
Thursday is also empty
Friday, Saturday or Sunday
None of the day that i dun miss you
None of the day that you will come back
to be in our old days

The day that i met you
The day that i was close to you
The day that we held hands
The day that i loved you
The day that i spoke to you
The day that you listened to me
How long it will be like this? i dun know.
How many months or years?
How many billions of our past memory?

I never dun miss you
I'm Sorry.

Day 7.

0512 is our number. Our date.

Day 6.

Nobody knows what this means. Only you and me..

Day 5.

Lin Yu Zhong - Xuan Lu

Once u hold my hand so tight, look at me, and sang to me so seriously at kbox.

Day 4.

Stage reminds me of you.

Day 3.

Esplanade is forever our place.







love Esplanade alot.

Day 2.

this mv, this song, is ur current fav. Good Things.

this song, at ur house when we are going out,
im surprised that u learn this song so fast.
u told me that because u are learning this song
and ur neighbour make noise at midnight,
u still thought ur neighbour make noise
cause u sing too loud when u are learning.

and this is de last song that u sang to me.
are u really singing this to me?

Met you yesterday after things happen.
when u are on the way, i told them im scare..
yes. im scare. and i miss u alot.
but i dunno how to look directly at ur eyes.
when u are here, i try act like im alright.
but after i saw u, im angry & upset.
all our memories just come back to my mind when we watch Cars2.
think and think, keep tell myself not to stand close to u,
cannot cry in front of u, end up i fall asleep inside. haha.

after i reached home, i just let go and cried for hours.
early this morning wake up cried for hours again..
after things happen, this is de day that i tear so much so much.

even though i never look at u much.
but i still really do miss u..
Nice song from u - Good Things.

不要哭 至少你和我记得很清楚
爱 是为彼此祝福

Dun cry, at least you and me remember it very clearly
Love, is giving blessings to each other.

i cannot dun cry, but i will remember it very clearly
i love u, and i will give u all my blessings. =)

Day 1.

Red Integra makes me think of you.
Below office has a Black Integra.
Everytime i saw Integra, it would be you.

No.

What did i do wrong?
and this is what i get in return?
what stupid shit is this seriously.

Balancing

Recently u have been busy with ur assignment, ur exam.
While im busy with nth. im jobless. no income. bored at home.

i didnt blame u that u keep stick with ur friends.
cause friends are more important to u.
but u have to remember u still have another one beside u.
which u have forgotten.

i dun wanna no whats wrong with us.
i just wanna both of us happy.
are you really happy with the another one that is beside u?
i think with ur friends u are more happy bah.

Please balance everything properly.

u answered their call. but please answer mine too.
u sms them, reply their every msg. but mine? none.
ur phone is always silent when u are with them.
but not mine.

i tried not to disturb u already.
i really hate all this. Please put a full stop in there.

这一个星期我过的好心苦.
我到底这么了...

你的脾气我好难聊解.. =(

Forgotten.

还记得我是你的谁吗？
感觉上好像你忘了我是你的谁了。

Last..

last day to work and taiwan..
met alot of awesome ppl in de fish tank.
thank u so muchie guys. love every single one of u inside de fish tank.. =)
meet u guys again soon!

Genting 1st-3rd July.

late upload Genting pic. lol.
Anyways, Genting de place is normal. de bus trip was not very nice.
because de time at bus was tired.. very tired...
Genting de only thing that is nice which is de weather!!
Seriously in love with de weather.
if Singapore's weather is like Genting that will be so great. hahaha.

Eric & Yh.


Me & him.


Weather there is totally awesome. cooling windy cold SHIOK!


4 of us..


Went to arcade and play since we have nth to do.


and collected 320 tix..







Space Shot. scary ride man. yet still got so many ppl q-ing up to take this rides. Daring~


Awesome buffet especially de sashimi!


take a stroll before going back Singapore..


Next week i going off to Taiwan for 9 beautiful wonderful awesome days!
Super happy! =) how i wish i can just stay at Taiwan and dun come back to Singapore.

Back!

Thrown letter to company that friday.
a long story to explain why i threw this letter.

Anyway, just back from Genting!
things and fun there are okay~
bus trip was tired.
Gonna rest and start work tml!
Night! =)

Exhausted.

Cried out really hard today. just want a deep rest this weekend.
Bearing lots of things in heart really not healthy at all.
im just tired, need a massage on my body.

Yesterday just fall down from bus stairs cause i dunno what im thinking.
head damn pain, and just fall off like this.
alot of ppl saw it. but i dun really care, my mind and heart is like wtf only.
face damn black.
Injured my both legs and my right arm & hand.
the next day i woke up my whole body is hell aching seriously.
so wanted to take mc or leave but i have things to clear off today.
anyway, office is getting more and more quiet, thats part of de reason too.

Going Genting next weekend.
Going Taiwan 1 and half month later.
Excited! cant wait!!
Will upload a few pics of my Genting trip next week when im back! =)

Alice In the Wonderland!

Thanks Alice for de top banner!

With Love. =)

怎麽办?!

我做工，越做越闷了！
我不知道要怎麽办。。 =（

谁可以跟我讲我如何该怎麽做。。

天啊救救我吧！！！

Happy Father's Day!

Papa, u are de best, de wonderful, de always awesome dad i have.
Ur every words out from ur mouth to me is good for me.
Thanks for all de love and care for all this years.
its my turn to take care of u now! =)

Papa, u are seriously awesome.
Love and Hugs u with all my heart!

Yellow & Blue

Seriously, this 2 HELL Color Paper is KILLING ME!!!!
Make me OT nvm, still make my eyes nearly go blind!!
Ok. dun wanna say so much. de more i say, de more angry im. zzz!

hair cut-ed!
like that see no diff. but i feel like it is sooo short already.. =(

=)

yupe yupe!
just uploaded my blog header pic.
anyhow make one la.
hope its fine with u guys!
i love it cause i made it, i did it, and its me! haha!!

Don't work too hard. Nobody notices anyway.

Do u guys agree this? Me, myself totally agree this.
cause work is endless.
u OT so much, work so hard,
u still have to keep working.
even if someone notices ur hard work,
ur pay also like that.
haizz. =(
so guys, dun work so hard ok. relax urself..

Happy Belated V'day guys! =)

CNY!

CNY is coming!!!
so happy cause i got red packets to take! =))
dun really have de CNY mood actually.
but still happy. hahaha!

tml still got work..
dunno Wednesday got half day anot..
hope got.. =)

here is a photo with my dark hair color! =p



work work work..
$$$, $$$..
tired tired tired.... zzzz

Before & After.

well. i say that i gonna make my hair for CNY.
here are de pic that is before & after without my face. =)

before..



after..


darken so much right? zzz..
at first i dun use to it.
cause i always use to have light color.

after i got this color darken,
friends around me tell me that i looks better with this hair color..
i hope they are right.
until now i still dun use to it.. lol!

after my hair dyed, i never zhi lian le.
until today just zhi lian only. hahaha!
will post up zhi lian pic soon! =)

Its a long time since i last update my blog..
time flies.. everyday also stress out and tired cause of work.
but i have to buck up. sleep early, rest well and be alert for de next day.
no choice. life is like this, no matter when it comes to sch or work.

Chinese New Year is coming, gonna get my hair done for CNY de next 2days.
Color choosen. Hope David can give me de color that i one.
For hairstyle, i dunno what to do. my hair is long, cannot do anything with long hair.
cut already still long. doesnt make a difference.
So i let David decide how he wanna cut my hair.

Will update my pic asap after my hair is done.
Hope there is a difference in hair color..

Anyway, i gonna change my blog header pic on top.
half way done. i will change it once done! =)

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Happy New Year Eeveryone! =)
May u have a better year in 2011!!