Unlucky days.

How should I start? Recently alot of sway things happen to me. Told my gf everything and feel so much better. Thanks Orange. After I tell her my everything she did ask me why didn't I shout out that I'm tired for all this shit? Why didn't I cry out loud for all this shit? My reply was I dunno. And gave her my no choice face. 我也很佩服我自己为什么到现在我没哭没喊累. And now I wanna say, I'm real tired of my life. 我都被钱收住我了. I really have no choice. If I'm richer then good le. I won't have so much problems already. I won't even care or bother how ppl think or attitude me cause I'm rich. But too bad, I'm not. I wanna find more part time jobs for myself to earn more money. To make myself tired so I can sleep well. What I hope is that all my sway things can faster end. Good luck come come ok? I'm waiting for u to come to mama. I believe my luck will come de. I will slowly wash away de bad luck de. =) 我一定要加油! 为了我自己我的家,一定要! 随让我一个人,不管多累或多辛苦多难熬我都要熬过这关. 我相信我做得到.不管多辛苦我都要撑下去. 有时我好需要一个肩膀来靠一靠. 我可以讲到现在我还是怕安静. 要习惯这一个人真的对我来说很不容易. 我还在练习当中. I will think a lot when I'm on my way to work. keep asking myself how come I will think so much? And de only way to stop thinking so much is to sleep. Sleep really cures me and my brain a lot. But when I wake up, I started to think again. Zzz. How I wish I can just sleep and sleep all de way. For now, I so wanna blog out how i feel. But no words can describe my feelings. Or maybe I should say I couldn't take it the things I need to overcome soon? Ahhhhhhhh! Wtf. 做人做到好累啊!!!!