Day 184.

如果能重来一次，
我不愿让你一个人.

我最后一个奢求的可能
只求你有快乐人生.

想念你 不可能停止 只能期待末日
想念你 只愿你奔向 幸福的明日

Day 176

昨天我们都一起去考试
都一起不及格了. haha!

虽然我们没什么讲话
没什么看这对方
可是当你一离开train 要去找她的时候,
我真的很舍不得你
心有痛到.

每一次看到你 我的心就软了
不懂要这么跟你开口说话 这么看着你
没有看到你的时候 我很想骂你打你 很讨厌你

我也不知道我的心在想什么.
我只知道我还是想你的.

Day 173

人說 談感情 先認真的就不會贏
我們愛上的那個總是會比較愛自己

Day 172

I saw u that day.

U no, my heart is sour and pain?

I never wanna tok to u.

After some time never see u, I never wanna see u.

But I still saw u. I dunno how to react. Dunno what to do.

Dunno what to say. Dunno how to look at u.

Stoning at lounge. Colleagues no what happen and lai an Wei me.

Thanks guys.

Today is feb 14. 情人节.

U going to take off all de anything everything on Ur 身上 that is related to me.

Gave her everything u can.

Saying not to hurt another girl.

U no after I saw Ur text I feel like crying?

U no my heart damn pain?

U no how pissed off I'm?

Stop telling me that I'm changed.

U did change too ok.

And what attend wedding?! What u toking.

How old only. What wedding.

Stop all this things ok.

U wanna go get together with her, just go ahead.

Dun tell me all this.

Anyway, 我给你我的祝福 幸福. All de best to u and her.

Day 165

我们的爱犯了什么错
眼泪又在不停流
是不是谁给的不够
还是谁放的太多

我们的爱犯了什么错
不能向前 不能退后
谁应该原谅谁
变成爱的结果
这结果是谁的错

Day 162

没有你这么办
像我现在无法入眠
只要你在我身边.

Day 160.

U told me to go back to my normal life so i wont so xin ku.
U told me to go find my friends.
U told me to open my hands.
U told me we should not meet so much first.
U told me we should not contact at de moment.
U told me u hope i still will treat u as friend.
U told me u got soso much things to tell me but no use telling already.
And, u told me to find a boyfriend.
i find it so joke when u call me go find a boyfriend.

everything use say, i also can.
its like how i did that to u last time.
i still remember i cried and shout to u and tell u i dun love u anymore.
hang up ur call and never contact never meet u le.
i understand how u feel le. =)

i can tell u.. Sry, i still cant do it. so hard to open my hands.
so hard to get a boyfriend. so hard..

i hate u. hate u from falling in her.
hate u for not trying even more hard to get me back.
i always believe if u really love me soso much,
u will sacrifice anything and everything for me.
Thanks someone for telling me this.
but ask urself. did u?
what i heard from u is not like this. all i heard was 'excuses'
if u still love me that much, come back to me now. and throw her aside can?

i no i should not blame her.
but i just hate her. hate her that she got u.
cause i believe my love for u is much more and deeper then her.
and she just got u like this. so unfair to me. seriously.
call her no need act one nice person ok? so fake.
no need to tell me how good she is too. cause i still hate her.
u will never no how much i hate her.

i hate myself. hate myself that i am de one who ask for a breakup.
hate myself for not caring u that day.
hate myself for trusting u so much that u wont do that to me.
hate myself for giving u so much free time with ur friends and make u fall for her.
hate myself for being too boring. too quiet and not awesome enough for u.

removed pictures from fb, removed everything that u gave me at my room
will make me forget u?
i also dunno. seems like so hard to forget even if i removed everything from my room.
cause my brain my heart have not remove yet.

no matter what i do, where i go. work, sleep, walk, eat.
once i think of u and past. my eyes will get watery.
when can all this just stop?
until now i dun understand why i ended up like this.
i still cant get an answer and no one can answer me.
i thought im de happiest, go with simple life, blurr blurr let u take care of me de girl.
now? i feel so shitty. too much bad things happen to me.
i dunno what to do. really dunno.
hell headache.
life suck.