Day 165

我们的爱犯了什么错
眼泪又在不停流
是不是谁给的不够
还是谁放的太多

我们的爱犯了什么错
不能向前 不能退后
谁应该原谅谁
变成爱的结果
这结果是谁的错

Day 162

没有你这么办
像我现在无法入眠
只要你在我身边.

Day 160.

U told me to go back to my normal life so i wont so xin ku.
U told me to go find my friends.
U told me to open my hands.
U told me we should not meet so much first.
U told me we should not contact at de moment.
U told me u hope i still will treat u as friend.
U told me u got soso much things to tell me but no use telling already.
And, u told me to find a boyfriend.
i find it so joke when u call me go find a boyfriend.

everything use say, i also can.
its like how i did that to u last time.
i still remember i cried and shout to u and tell u i dun love u anymore.
hang up ur call and never contact never meet u le.
i understand how u feel le. =)

i can tell u.. Sry, i still cant do it. so hard to open my hands.
so hard to get a boyfriend. so hard..

i hate u. hate u from falling in her.
hate u for not trying even more hard to get me back.
i always believe if u really love me soso much,
u will sacrifice anything and everything for me.
Thanks someone for telling me this.
but ask urself. did u?
what i heard from u is not like this. all i heard was 'excuses'
if u still love me that much, come back to me now. and throw her aside can?

i no i should not blame her.
but i just hate her. hate her that she got u.
cause i believe my love for u is much more and deeper then her.
and she just got u like this. so unfair to me. seriously.
call her no need act one nice person ok? so fake.
no need to tell me how good she is too. cause i still hate her.
u will never no how much i hate her.

i hate myself. hate myself that i am de one who ask for a breakup.
hate myself for not caring u that day.
hate myself for trusting u so much that u wont do that to me.
hate myself for giving u so much free time with ur friends and make u fall for her.
hate myself for being too boring. too quiet and not awesome enough for u.

removed pictures from fb, removed everything that u gave me at my room
will make me forget u?
i also dunno. seems like so hard to forget even if i removed everything from my room.
cause my brain my heart have not remove yet.

no matter what i do, where i go. work, sleep, walk, eat.
once i think of u and past. my eyes will get watery.
when can all this just stop?
until now i dun understand why i ended up like this.
i still cant get an answer and no one can answer me.
i thought im de happiest, go with simple life, blurr blurr let u take care of me de girl.
now? i feel so shitty. too much bad things happen to me.
i dunno what to do. really dunno.
hell headache.
life suck.

Day 158

U say road is I choose de. Ya! I choose. Me me me. I choose to break up with u. I choose not to care u that day. Idiot me. Road is I choose. What I got now I deserve it. It's my karma.

Maybe I should learn from u, get another half and forget de 5 years.

Seriously I dunno how did u forget everything

and happily living with her and get into her life do easily.

Can U tell me and teach me how u did it?

Broke up for 5 months le, I still at there think of u, think of de past,

never fail to forget u, keep cry like idiot, trying to make myself tired to sleep.

Can anybody tell me, how long I still need to cry? How long more I can open my hand?

5years, u can why I can't? Why I so stupid.

U are happy with her, yet I cry alone like idiot out there which no one care.

U said we are forever good friend. Please. Take away Ur forever.

There is nth forever.

Haix. I feel so idiot so stupid so dead so useless person now.

Bloody hell tired of my life. No more colors already. ='(

Day 156

我还以为我们会继续再走多五年的路.

交往了10年就可以结婚. 可是现在不是这样的.

看到好多朋友一个一个都结婚 拍结婚照

我都能感受到它们有多幸福快乐的. 但我的呢?

狠不得想快点找到我的幸福拍个结婚照

做世界上最幸福 最快乐 最漂亮的新娘. Haha!

我的小女人,

陪你经过你的风风雨雨 困难 问题 都帮你解决.

但是还是打动不了你.

为什么? 为什么她的小小的举动都会让你跑到她的身边去?

真不公平. 简简单单的我都会得到这样的悲剧.

Day 153

请看着我，说你还爱我.

我们都舍不得，我们会更好吗?

你的笑对我来说 真的很重要.

Day 147

我这样的爱你会不会好可怕?

Day 146

就让我忙到 连哭的时间都没有最好.

Day 144

我什么都没有了.
做人真难. 就不可以做一个简简单单过着平平凡凡生活的人吗?
为什么一定要做坏人.
对不起, 我不会做也不想做坏人.
坏人不好做.
我已经跌到很惨了. 真的够了.
不要在烦我, 我累惨了.
After a new year, thought things will go better.
But actually it never go better, and even worst.

Day 141.

Always there is someone beside me, tok to me, listen to me, share with me, accompany me.

Now, I need to get use to do things alone, everything alone.

我的累, 我的闷, 我能跟谁说?

你已经不在我身边了. 你知道我有多想你吗?

你知道我需要你在我的身边听我乱乱讲话吗?

我很累可是睡不着 不够睡. 为什么??

Haiz.

Day 101.

我想要的是这样的幸福.

Day 87.

Day 80.

Yesterday went to malaysia, shop, sing and watch movie.
me and yh sang Hurt So Bad.
i dun dare to look at him.. cause 我狠怕.
last song i sang is 如果这就是爱情,
almost tear out le.
but i still manage to sing all out with my awful voice..

好复杂的恋情 which i dunno how to explain.
i dunno what to do. so fml.
Seriously fml..
我很想逃.可是我能逃去哪里?
逃避能解决问题吗? haix..

Day 78.

how i wish i can dun care. or just mia for weeks.
what i do also not right at all.

things may not be de same like last time.
some things may be different.
u say i have changed.
yes. maybe i changed. yes, maybe things cannot be back like last time.
but my heart for u never change.
and its more then enough to cover everything.

Day 71.

如果我成全了你
如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清
是我证明
我爱你

我的心还是在你这边的.

the whole song is so awesome!

Day 66.

分开以后 每当想到你我就会低下头

Day 63.

不要走, 我舍不得.
我谁都不要, 只要你.
可是我们什么都不可以做.
只可以抱着你哭.
你回不来, 我进不去.

非要等到爱远走 分两头 才知道 多不舍你走
非要等到爱远走 分两头 才知道 你我都怕寂寞

对不起, 我为难了你.

Day 60.

两个月了...

The hardest thing in love is letting go,
Letting go the one you love.

Surprised that i never post day 54?
yupe. because i forget.. (how can i forget?!)
its because i went out with him..
after that went to kbox and find my friends..

wait for de next awesome post bah. =)

Day 53.

Picture took at Singapore Indoor Stadium.
where we went to watch SHINee's Concert.
and thats de last pic we took together...

Sometimes words aren't enough to describe how I feel about you... about us.